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Tuesday, September 27, 2005

...

I've got a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall I dont care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
And it's brighter than sunshine...

Brighter Than Sunshine - Aqualung

(Got the blues... or the reds...)

Monday, September 26, 2005

Revisiting...

Yesterday I revisited some of my life by retyping some of the poems I wrote last year. Today I feel more mature and grown and it's good and somewhat fun to notice that this process has been happening and how it's been going on. Suddenly I was happy to feel again some lost feelings, escially for some certain person. Even though the weekend was kinda turbulent due to a huge fight I had with my hubby, I had amazing moments, including a whole Sunday of gorgeous sleep!
I hope this week is as amazing and thoughtful as last one.

(Quit song: Hung Up - Madonna)

Friday, September 23, 2005

I Don't Miss You At All...

It's not like I don't miss anyone at all... but you know when you need those moments of your own, when you try to think about your dumb life? This is it. And this time, seems I'm really doing it; so all I need is some peace of mind.

YUD YUD RESH

(Song: I Don't Miss You At All - Norah Jones)

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Let Go

Need is what we feel when we neglect ourselves...

Sometimes we connect our spiritual needs to the outside world, whether it's something, or whether someone. We often catch ourselves saying, "I'll be happy when I have that", "I'll be complete when whoever loves me", "I'll find happiness when I'm rich and famous", and when those things never happen, we fall into frustration, pain and depression. And therein lay the problem.
Lately - I mean, in the last couple days - I've been transfering my instant happiness to others. Insetead of making my day good, I've been waiting people to do it. But to be honest, I've had enough last night. I'll still have people in my life, and inviting them to make good moments in it, while I'll also try to be good at people's lives. But I am the second engineer (the first is always the Light) and the main project for now on . This line may sound very corny, but it's the utterly true at the moment: "hapinness lies in the palm of your hand."

(Quit "song" session: The Power Of Good-Bye - Madonna)

Thursday, September 15, 2005

The Unknown

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Today I went to the movie with my sister to finally watch The Amityville Horror. At first, if you're fan of awesome horror movies, that really scare the crap outta you, I recomend you this film. I believe everyone has at least an idea of what The Amityville Horror was, so I won't ramble about it. But the movie is so thrilling (and I badly anticipated it since I read the book) that I'd like to discuss some things that it made me think about.

Since whenever, we, human beings, wonder about life after death or if spirits, ghosts, poltergeists are real or just literature imagination. Many claim that the Lutz's story is a hoax. That by making up a horror story they'd get easy money. These people may be right, however, I don't believe that stories like the Lutz's are impossible. Since I belive that human beings have spirits, I believe that after a completed circle (death) spirits remain around us, carrying characteristics of their carnal lives. So I do believe in "evil" spirits and that they can influence our lives. No, I'm not a religious freak that believes all our actions and thoughts are influenced by the demon, actually, I don't believe on the Devil.
What's kind of interesting in all this is the attraction for the ocult that we grew in ourselves. Literature and cinema have been exploring this field exhaustingly and, even if most of the stories are similar, it still steals our attentions. As they say, it's what we don't know that fascinates us the mostly.

Song: Nothing Fails - Madonna (the one I'm listening to right now).

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

VAV HEY VAV

I should be killed every time I take my frustrations out on the person who loves me the best. The who always understands when I do crap and is always willing to put me at first on his life, even if I never do the same. I should be killed for neglecting such person.
But this is guilt and remorse is only here to invite me for a change. They're not supposed to hang out with my ego and keep me stopped at the same place. That's why this month, month of Virgo, I'm all about Time Travelling, so I can "transmorm my past, reshape my presnt, and creat a future full of joy and fulfillment."

Song: 1. No/La Pared - Shakira

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Prepare Yourselves!!!!

Ring ring ring goes the telephone
The lights are on but there's no-one home
Tick tick tock it's a quarter to two
And I'm done
I'm hanging up on you